The new year is upon us....

Usually around this time of year I am awaiting the new year with hopefulness & anticipation... Making all sorts of promises to myself about how I am going to change what I don't like about myself this year, blah blah blah.... Promises which I never keep & just feel like crap about because I didn't.



Today was thinking about 2008 & what my resolution would be... Then as I pondered what I would have done or changed about me this year when I realized I had the best year.



I married my husband a man who I believe is the only one who gets me & I believe I am the only one who gets him & can still laugh at each other even when we are fighting, set up home for our family, became closer with Alyssa than ever before & welcomed my precious little Taylor in our lives. I even gained a beautiful step daughter & wonderful family full of my new in laws.



For the first time I was able to be on my own with out any help from my family... help with Alyssa, help with the day to day which was something I thought I could never do.



I became a better mother this year something I am so proud of myself for.

I became a wife & learned to love someone unconditionally rather than on my terms.

I made a beautiful home for my children & husband rather than some apartment I planned on leaving in a few months.

I learned to love a child like my own without her being mine.

I learned the more family you have whether it be yours or you inherit them makes your life doubly blessed.

I learned that I have strength that I never thought I did. I learned that I can adapt to my surroundings if needed.

I have formed a strong relationship with my mother again that was very much needed & one with my father as well.

I have learned what is really important in life & not what i thought was important through having to portray an image.

I lost weight without trying & am skinnier than I have been in years... LOL.

I think 2008 was a great year for me, in love, growth, responsibility, humility, just figuring out a little more of what makes me tick...

So my resolution for 2009 is to look at the big picture rather than sweat the small stuff... I think once you can do that everything else will fall into place.

As my Nanny always says to me when I feel its hopeless... God will never give you more than you can handle... & I always like to add, but he sure likes to test my limits....

Happy New Year to everyone!!