Hormones??? Maybe....

OK so today I feel like shit.. emotionally. I woke up in a funk, probably due to a bad night of no sleeping again with the baby. Then I called my Daddy to wish him a happy 45th birthday, this made me sad because I was not able to be there with him or am I able to go down this weekend to see him. Then my Dad told me that he was moving all his stuff upstairs into the new apartment today & that him & Noreen (my Dad's girlfriend) were painting & he wished I was there to help him pick colors & decorate (that's my thing.. I do it for all my family) which made me even more sad because by the time I can come down again it will all be done.

Then he told me that everyone was coming over tonight to help.... Johnny,Krissy, Nicky, Aunty, Uncle Jim. Liz.. & I knew that this was just another night of family retardedness that I was missing out on. Not that I wanted to be moving furniture up 2 flights of stairs but just the fact that it was another day I wasn't getting to spend with my family.

So that set the tone for the day with me.

Then I talked to my grandmother & she tells me that my cousin is engaged. I am sure my grandmother was also told in confidence by my cousin Liz but Nanny is known as the town crier... My sister was also told by her today... LOL.

We are all so involved in each other lives. It's annoying sometimes, but it is also a closeness most families don't have & we love it.

So this was just enough to make me wish I was there & to bring a tear to my eye. It's hard being so far away from people you are so close to, even if you are missing out on something as stupid as helping move furniture.

So is it that I am homesick or are my hormones still out of whack? Probably a mixture of both.